Sam has some exciting news to share!
Wild, right? I always thought I was a one and done kind of parent. I love the dynamics of my little family, I'm looking forward to see the changes this little nugget brings and to see Sam slip into the role of a big brother.
I pray he's caring and loving towards the baby. Someday protective and proud to be a big brother. I hope he learns to share haha but more than anything I just hope he loves this baby and knows how much his dad and I love him, that no matter what he's always my baby always the one person in the world who changed my world.
Probably not a popular topic because it's not sunshine and unicorns but I've felt a grieving period since finding out about baby 2. I've been grieving the "loss" of my time with Sam. Of our days of running to town with ease or just going for a drive. Days of spending hours upon hours of just the two of us, no attention struggles--unless you count Braxi! I know everyone says my heart will immediately love two, I look forward to that feeling because at this exact moment I don't know how it's possible, I appreciate knowing that it is indeed not only possible but is exactly what will happen without a second thought. Life will be different and Sam and I will adjust accordingly I'm sure eventually I'll look back and wonder how I did life without the two of them together.
I'm hoping in about 3 weeks we will find out the gender. I had thought about not finding out but Trent laughed that idea right out the window. We are planners. So far this pregnancy has been the exact opposite of Sam's. I've been sick since week 6 I'm on week 13 now so I hope I'm at the tail end of it. My whole body hurts probably doesn't help that I'm basically at the weight I was when I GAVE BIRTH with Sam haha that's not good yall I'm guessing that's causing all the aches and pains and the headaches are intense. I've pretty much been the whiniest most annoying pregnant person ever. I'm even annoying myself at this point with all my complaining haha I know it'll get better though. I'm hoping to keep up with this one better than I did with Sam's so far, not off to a good start but once I start feeling better I hope to post monthly updates.
Yay! I wouldn't say I grieved but I did worry about the logistics of 2 and wondering if I could be a good mother to 2 kids. Your heart does immediately change. Does that make it simple, no but the love is there. My body was much more achy the 2nd time around too. Sickness was different but seemed to be more ligament pain, etc. I hope you keep us updated.
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